Tag: mental health
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As has been done multiple times, I’ve circled back again lately. Not in a literal sense, but emotionally. I’ve had some incredible new experiences in the recent months and years – moments that should have filled me to the brim. And yet, there’s this familiar ache, this kind of hollow space that just… persists. It’s a feeling when you’re supposed to be soaring, but you still feel a bit grounded and stuck. And then, you still push through, try new things, meet new people, and open yourself up to different perspectives, and believe it’ll be different this time, but it… […] continue reading
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There are always big and scary things on the horizon that I don’t want to deal with, but you should not be shocked when I say I’m really good at that. Like, award-winningly good. And sometimes, it just feels so comfy, like pulling a warm blanket over my head on a chilly winter morning. Deep down, I know that the thing isn’t going to magically disappear. It definitely isn’t going to fix itself, either. Yet, I push it down, and there’s this lovely sense of peace for a little while. When the time is right, I’ll face what I need… […] continue reading
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I got laid off 2 weeks ago. As an individual contributor, structural changes necessitated by circumstances can’t always be avoided. Did it get stressful after that? Not at the start. I was full of energy for the first week, but then it dawned upon me and the second week was very stressful. Was this my personal failure? No, but yes. My work didn’t lead to my layoff. But my work didn’t also save me from getting laid off. I have two choices now: get another job or pursue further studies. I seek answers and will have mine soon enough (from… […] continue reading
